I'm a Fat Loser!

Down another 1.4 pounds for a grand total of something like 27.2 pounds. Yay, me.

Picked up the Vanagon over the weekend. BH is quite excited about it which is totally fun to see. She puts herself last too often and I am not as good as I could be at saying, Honey, put yourself FIRST sometimes...

And FI has a tooth! It's just breaking through now. She was pretty cranky for a couple of days but I think it's not hurting so much now that it's broken the surface. She'll be four months old next weekend... a little early on this tooth thing. Already above average, har har.

Just finished reading Anne Lamott's Traveling Mercies this evening. I read it in part because my friend Melissa in Fairbanks recommended it. Really it was more like she flattered me by saying Anne Lamott reminds her of me... I had already read her Operating Instructions, a hilarious yet realistically gritty and desperate account of her induction to single motherhood. So anyway now I'm all thinking spiritual thoughts. Which I already was but more so. More on that later.

New Shoon

I think it was Dickinson who wrote a poem about "brown shoon"...

Got new running shoes yesterday. I am committed now; those suckers cost a hundred and ten bucks. I told the fellow I would be walking and using an elliptical trainer and after he looked at my poor, sad feet, he set me up in this pair of Asics running shoes because they had excellent support. I went to a real running shoe store (Pace Setter Athletic) and not the mall. My feet are a little too far gone to entrust them to some pimply faced teen in a striped jersey and a name tag.

Mom came and watched FI whilst we went out to dinner the other night. We tried to go to our favorite Vietnamese beef noodle soup restaurant but it was closed for remodel -- why?! why?! why?! It's not been open that long and the interior was gorgeous as it was! So we ended up having strip mall Chinese, not so great but we bolted it fast and then rushed off to the fabric store to buy yet more fabric for BH's quilt obsession, and then to the craft store for an extravagantly expensive (but fifty percent off) rolling doo-dad that stores scrapbooking paper and supplies, for my paper goods obsession. It telescopes... and has wheels and a handle like a suitcase... portability being such the important commodity in scrapbooking, evidently. Actually I may do some traveling with my goods, over to Monica's sometime. So as romantic dates went it was probably not in the top ten, but we had fun and it was nice to get out on our own. We need to do that more often.

Had a phone interview with a temperament advisor at our HMO concerning little BH and her refusal to nap or sleep on her own. More on that later. The little grub is stirring and murping as we speak.

Life Is Good

It occurred to me yesterday as I was talking to friend Monica on the phone that I feel better right now than I have in years.

Went to water aerobics last night, that felt good too. Woke up not sore or stiff, but just feeling like I'd used some muscles I haven't heard from in a while, and it felt good. Every damn thing feels good. What is it lately?!

Another of our goldfish died. I'm going to let BH fish the corpse out. I'm still doing the heebie-jeebie dance from the last one (see earlier post).

Yesterday was my 37th birthday. Happy birthday to me! Had a nice day. BH sent me flowers... brought me some books (Jasper Fforde, the Tuesday Next series, very fun) and a cd (Jimmy Buffett, License to Chill). Bought self a cyclocomputer for bike (for training, yay!), went to Fat Losers. Gained one point something pounds, point two I think. This was expected as I spent the weekend not caring too much in order that I might enjoy some goodies at the BBQ at Mom's and so forth. Ribs! Man they were good. And cake. And the best potato salad I've had in a long, long time. It was nice to just enjoy a little and not go crazy and not beat myself up for it. I was back OP (On Program, in WW message board speak) yesterday and vow to document better and drink water like I should. It really helps plus of course breastfeeding means I need plenty anyway.

Got hooked up with a mentor from the Danskin Triathlon program -- she is here in Portland which was unexpected; the website said they didn't have any here so I was going for an email mentor, and she turned out to be local. So that's exciting. She seems very nice and quite enthusiastic! So I'm looking forward to corresponding with her, even meeting her.

BH and I are shopping this weekend for shoes for me (running/walking) and swimsuits for us both. My suit is starting to get kind of funky, the elastic in the shelf bra part has begun to get brittle and give off that old rubber smell. And it's not so snug as it once was! Yay me!

Slow Fat Triathlete

Well, Barnes & Noble never sent us the books we ordered so BH got a refund (after many frustrating emails and finally a phone call in which she was urged to reorder the books!). So I went out and bought Slow Fat Triathlete and another book about how to train for triathlons, for women specifically. And I emailed a local organization about running and walking. They do some kind of 27-week program aimed at training for marathons on down, for the rank beginner as well as the seasoned pro. Too late to get in on it for this season but I asked what was up for the winter months and for advice for a newbie triathlete-to-be.

On the way home from bookstore had a moment in which I imagined myself finishing first triathlon, actually got verklempt thinking of how great it would be. So must.

Will get running shoes for my birthday. :)

FI napping finally. Love her to pieces but wish she was a good little napper sometimes.

She really is the most gorgeous baby ever.